|Artwork by Luigi Santucci|
As I viewed Jesus in the garden, the lesson I learned many years ago from Elder Maxwell came to mind. He taught that Jesus loves us so much as individuals, that even if only one of us needed the atonement then Jesus would have done it. That means Jesus loves me so much that He would have suffered and died, just to save me. Next I thought of all of the pain Jesus endured, and I remembered the pain I have had in my life, and how much I wanted to get away from it. I know that Jesus did not like the pain He felt, which was much worse than any pain I have had. I imagined Him desperately wanting to run away, and then calling my face to mind, and deciding to stay. How can I even comprehend a love as great as that?
What does Jesus ask of me? To come to Him, to remember Him. Why? It is not because He has a big ego. It is not so I will compare myself to Him and find myself lacking. I believe it is because He never wants me to be alone, especially when things are hard. He knows me. He knows the good parts, and all of the dark hidden parts I don't want anyone to see. He knew those things when He was in the Garden (as incomprehensible as that is) and He stayed. Everything He asks of me is to help me.
I left that meeting hoping that I really would always remember Jesus and that wonderful love He has for me.
"Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me! Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me."
words by Charles H. Gabriel