What We Leave Behind

A picture I took at a stop along the Nebo Loop yesterday (with Derek)

I've been thinking about the Inheritance Project I did in the past.  I wrote down all of the stories I could think of that might be helpful.  But, as time goes on, I continue to learn.  I still do not have lots of $s to leave behind.  I do have a LOT of puppets, and quite a few books.  I have plants, and blankets, and clothes.  But I think the most important thing to pass on is love.  Love for Heavenly Father, and Jesus, and all of the people that I know -- especially my own family.  

I have not written a blog in three months, and I haven't written a song in three years!  Life can be a struggle for me, and really for everyone.  Sometimes I have a hard time wanting to sing.  I struggle to laugh.  I know God loves me, and my family loves me, and yet sometimes I feel lost and lonely.  Am I fulfilling my purpose here on earth?  What is it I need?

I think that maybe I just need to stop trying so very hard to do the right thing that I am paralyzed by the thought of doing the wrong thing and so I don't do anything!  I need to reach out to others with confidence that they will want to hear from me.  I need to focus more outwardly and less inwardly.  

It is so hard to want to do anything when you are tired.  I need to remember that to get energy, I have to use it. I need to find some of the carefree joy I had as a child, singing my way home from school without worrying who was listening.   But maybe most of all, I need to remember that there is always good in every day and God's love is constant and those are good things to share. 

I may not feel inspired to write, but it would probably help me anyway, even if it helps nobody else.  So let us see if I can let go of the perfect, and work on sharing something every day.  Love can be found in stories, and poems, and thoughts, and I hope to do better at sharing mine.